MY BEAUTIFUL SON
Written for Donna
My beautiful son
When I first saw you it was just on a scan
A blurred little image, but I'm already a fan
In May 89, I remember it well
You entered this world, I started to kvell
There's no love quite like a mother & son
My beautiful boy, For I am your mum
I’d sing you a song and rock you to sleep
You’d lay in your cot and I’d not hear a peep
Time flew by, you grew up so fast
Bottles and nappies a thing of the past
You're now into football, and Leeds is your team
When they scored a goal, you'd let out a scream
You’d march on together, trips were well planned
As a devoted supporter, you’d travel the land
You’d meet up with friends from Fullerton Park
Join in with the banter and have quite a lark
But back at N9 with all of your pals
You’d sing it out loud with the guys and the gals
We’re all Leeds aren’t we? Is one of the chants
When Leeds miss a sitter it’s Elli who rants
It’s when you're back home with a hug and a kiss
I know that you’re safe cos it’s you that I miss
Then you’re off out, but where to this time?
'You won’t know it mum, don’t worry, I’m fine'
You’ve not got a coat! And he’s out of the door
He'll have a good time, he’s done it before
What happened at work? And then you rebuff
'You won’t understand, I’m doing some stuff'’
'Did you want me luv?' Is what you would say
When you call me back later that day
I just want to know that my boy is okay
Please call me back and then hear you say
'Hi luv, alright?' I know that it’s you
Pop in for some tea, I’ve made you some stew
'With Alex now, there’s no need to fuss
I'll head off to London and go on the bus'
I then get a call, there’s something not right
My boy is in trouble, darling hold tight
I hurry on down, it’s quite a long ride
To hug and to hold him, to be by his side
Please, please save him, I say with a sigh
Do all you can, my boy cannot die
I let out a scream when I hear the news
'He’s passed away Donna' his life he did lose
He's now with the angels in heaven above
My beautiful son, it’s you that I love
MY DARLING BOY
You were my hand, I was your glove...
My darling boy
You brought joy into my life, you made me proud
My shining light stood out in a crowd
You made me laugh, you made glow
The love we had, others don’t know
The tears right now, fall like rain
I cannot describe this awful pain
I feel so sad, so very low
Will this emptiness ever go
Our special bond, was one of a kind
It was made with love you cannot find
As well as dad, I was your luv
You were my hand, I was your glove
You were my shadow, seen by my side
Fiercely loyal, I would burst with pride
Achievements were many, and failures few
And when that happened, we’d start brand new
To achieve our goals
As father and son
We were a team
Until it was done
You were my friend
My very best friend
You gave me strength
Right to the end
Like no other, you brought me joy
I love you Elliot, my darling boy
THE SADDEST 100 DAYS OF MY LIFE
24 February 2020
The best-laid plans of mice and men often go awry
Life goes on for everyone
Mine stopped that awful day
Yet the birds still sing
And the wind still blows
Kids still scream
And the train still goes
The rain still falls
On the heads below
My eyes still cry
My mood is low
We said farewell on a chilly day
The crowd was out
As we made our way
And laid you to rest, we did that day
I’m not okay
Nor coping well
I miss my boy
Too much to tell
I love you son
I cry each day
I want you back
The pain will stay...
...'till you take my hand
And bring me near
To all of those
I hold so dear
I love you Elliot
AND HERE YOUR BOY WILL WAIT...
By Helen Ayres
William Wordsworth wrote to say
That once he met a child
He met her while he walked one day
And spoke with her a while
“Sisters and brothers, little Maid
How many may you be?”
The little girl looked up and said
“There isn’t only me…
…There’s other girls, plus 3 more boys
In total we are seven
Five of the siblings live at home
But two have gone to heaven”
“You run about, my little Maid
Your limbs they are alive
If two are in the church-yard laid
Then ye are only five”
The little girl looked in dismay
Insisted they were seven
“They’re still are part of life each day
It’s just that they’re in heaven”
The child looked up and said. “Please Sir
Because they are now gone
It doesn’t mean they never were
My love for them lives on”
I know it is the same for you
Your heart will never mend
Friends may help to see you through
The dark days that descend
His love remains within your heart
He’ll always be your son
Even though you are apart
In you he still lives on
He sends a gift to you each day
To illustrate the bond
He tries in each and every way
To break beneath the pond
To let you know though you’re apart
The love that you have given
Is still within his heart
Even though he is in heaven
It’s said of heaven in a song
There is a garden where
Far far away from doubt and wrong
Our old friends meet us there
And just beyond the plants and streams
You’ll find a field of grass
And here the angels form their teams
To dribble, shoot and pass
And here it is your boy will wait
The routine is the same
He’ll make new friends and they’ll debate
While angels play the game
So when the time is come for you
To leave this earthly pond
He will not wait beside the gate
But in the field beyond
Keep on walking past the place
Where many others meet
Your eyes will see again his face
Beside an empty seat
And now at last can grief subside
To be replaced by joy
As you take the seat beside
Your dear beloved boy